Friendsip

Never underestimate the happiness and greatness about a loyal friendship...
As I wrote in an earlier post; I'm really bad to keep close to friends at the moment, since I don't have the ability to "keep in contact" that often that this century somewhat requires, before you can call yourself "friends."
     I sincerely from the bottom of my heart appreciate the friends that I have, that I can spend time with, do everything and nothing with. I sound so solemn. T_T But thanks to those people who accept me! And if I haven't spoken to them for a while, I really hope somehow they will still acknowledge me. Because absence is not a rejection, and I really hope people will understand it.

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Yesterday was one of the greatest days in a long time. I attended a gymnasium party in my hometown, as a photographer. I was really exited, since I would meet some people I haven't seen a long time.
My best childhood friend, and still best mate was attending as well. I was going to surprise her, and when she saw me she screamed.! We haven't seen each other for 4-5months, maybe written to each other 2-3 times.. (I know it's so bad.) But she was almost crying and at first she didn't let go of me! I got wet eyes as well. I can't describe how happy I was to see her as well!. :) Though we haven't been in good contact, we know how important we are to each other. And that was really a nice feeling. :) Thank you Josephine. I love you.. <3

Sloth or resistence?

Something I'm getting really tired of is my own laziness...

When I got home today, I was sure off that I had to work on my essay, and do all the other homework. That's just normal everyday school thingie. But I really can't. I opened the book, I opened the document that was going to be read. I look at it and then I go away.
    I put some classical music on I haven't heard for ages (yes, I like classical music... deal with it) sat on my floor and listened to it for about 2 hours. (Need a life? I don't know)
    It got me pretty relaxed actually, though the homework didn't make it self. It's 10:43pm now, I should sleep. Need to get up at 05:15am. But I don't want to sleep, because I don't like when I wake up - and the school work still haven't been made. I'm sick of it. But I just can't do it. T_T
    I also need to fix some stuff I promised different people - some things I just can't say no to do - promeses to a lot of people. I feel so bad for not doing them, but it takes me so much time to pull myself together. And even though I'm aware of it and hate it. I JUST CAN'T DO IT!

Nwaaaaa.. I wanna be Super Woman, take care of my own damn life, and learn to help others as well.
As our dear friend Zuko would have explained it : "WHY AM I SO BAD AT BEING GOOD?!"

S L O T H      S H O U L D     D I I I I I E E E ! ! ! !

Glee

Okay. I fell in the trap too. I am now watching Glee. Many from my class watch it, together with so many other teenagers over the world.. I watched 6 episodes today, and I kinda like it. It's catchy, funny and the music is great. It's not fantastic but interesting and entertaining... ;)

Metropolis - New musical

I just felt like writing my excitement about the new musical I'm gonna start now!
We start this Thursday, and I can't wait! Though the last time I participated in this musical group it was hard, but damn I miss the weekly dance, sing and acting training. It like "kept me going" in an active and motivating way.

This year is gonna be different than last year, where we played "The Hunchback of Notre Dame." That was a known story, and with solid songs.

This year it is self written by our instructor and is inspired by the book 1984 by George Orwell, The Fifth Element and the movie Metropolis. It's a future story of a corrupted world. The songs are gonna be famous hits from both rock, reggae, pop etc. The characters and complete story is still under work.

Maan! I'm so exited! I think it's such a cool concept, and I can't wait to see the characteristics!
It's gonna be challengeling but fun! =3

Sidekick. I'm almost good again after illness. Stupid thing. Fewer, inflammation of the throat, inflammation in my ear (was half deaf in the weekend. T_T) But now I fell better! Just need to get rid of the normal cold. 

Back on track

Last week was the worst in a long time. Pretty ironic, when it was a week I had looked so much forward to.
I can't believe how ill, sad, irritable and furious I was. Well. Personal reasons, and I'll keep them that way.
Life is to short to waste it on those feelings I just mentioned. Well, the ill part is not something you can decide yourself, and yet again. I wanna get over it. I'm still ill now, but hope I'll get better in the next 2 days.

Hopefully this will be the last boring, depressing post I'll make in a long time! Hope I will make some more interesting ones soon.. XP

Other costumes

Costumes which are not related to Japanese culture. 

•   Wicked - Elpheba
•   Sirene/Mermaid/Voodo Priestess

Library Addiction

The last 3 weeks I think, I've been so no happy about waiting for the bus.. I don't know why. Busses just doesn't like me at the moment. I run after them, and the just drive by, I go off the train and there's like 20-40min before the next comes, because the previously just drove as I arrived...

Well! My point is, when I wait in a main city on my way home from school (where I only need a bus next to get home) I just don't wanna wait. XD They got a library, and I just go there..

The problem is - I can't walk into a library without finding something I find interesting and wanna take home to look closer to it. XD

This is how my floor looks like now:

And that's just the books I know where are right now. XD
Then I got 3 fat books with piano notes, and some CD's lying at my table.

The funny thing is. I can't even read properly! I'll never get through it!
My vision have failed me the past year, I got some reading glasses now, but after using them over a month I still feel like I have problems. Big problems actually. XP I can't focus on the text, damn stupid. Got wrong help, and used lots of money on glasses. . . Have to find out whats wrong. I love to read. But well. Now I found so many good books, I hope I can force myself through them, though it's hard.

Meronpan

Random little update..
But I sooo miss Japans Meron Pan.. ._.

A story

I never had a plant in my room for over a month...
I have a lot of things on my mind, and forget to water it in a couple of days.
When I finally get reminded of it, because I miss the plant so much - it's always too late. 

I'm just not able to keep life in a plant if it needs everyday care...

 

One day I got a cactus. It didn't need to get watered everyday. And everytime I looked at it, it would look the same, though it had been days - weeks.. Months...

I really want a normal plant. But right now I'm just not able to live up to the talent in keeping them alive...

So please...
Be a cactus for me until I've learned how to take care of plants...

 

...

"I need solid ground under my feet..."

Fail at planning

I don't know why. But I simply don't have the ability to plan anything at all. I'm getting crazy when people get "mad" that I can't figure out my own time. I might understand it somewhat, but is it wrong? I honestly hate arrangements... I don't know if I get easily stressed, or just insecure when I can't be lord over my own time. It's so wrong and so weird. It's normal to say: "Okay see you on Monday at 15 o'clock, yes?" I just can't. What if I'll get unable to go? There's so many who constantly ask when, when, when? 
When I get in a period like that, I just cut off, and often don't answer anything. Is that wrong? Maybe yes, but that's just how it is. 

I'll work on it...    Sorry..

A blog about a blog

I came randomly past a blog yesterday while searching for some html help. It was a blog about how to have a blog. That's common, there's lots of those sites, I thought it was fun an looked it through..

I just figured that I do lots of "wrong" things to maintain a blog, how to keep it etc.
It was fun. XD Because of course it said how to get views, how to be interesting and how to get comments. And as a big point: keep one focus. I understand that if it's a blog about something special, but if people use a blog as a "personal space" to share some knowledge or experiences with others, then I don't see why it could be about various things. XD

I failed at blogging. But I like to do it anyway. XD

CalicoKat

CalicoKat
Insane piano motivation

Today when I was searching youtube for some songs, I fell over this artist again. I once heard some of it and downloaded on the page where he uploaded good quality of his songs. But today, when I found his channel again, I used over 2 hours just browsing his amazing library of piano covers he had made. And I sure downloaded them in good quality as well, and they are now (35 songs for now) on repeat.. It makes me relax so much, the emotion he puts into the piano playing is amazing.

I wish I could learn to play like him, it's insane.. :)

WCS feelings

Okay. I shouldn't care. And it's over now. But I still have some things that is just lingering on my heart, lying in my head, that just have to be written, that is outside my "WCS report" and somewhat more personal.. What ever... I regret later..

- I have no idea how I made it to the WCS, I didn't feel worthy, but it doesn't mean I didn't appreciate it! It was an amazing experience, and I'm so happy to have met all the people there.. Thanks!

- No, my costumes are not perfect, no I don't see them as perfect at all, I have a lot to learn. I practice. I've been making costumes for barely 2 years, and in all 8 costumes - and that's the only things I ever sew, I don't have time or money for lessons. So bare with me.

- The missing props on the stage what ever, was at first a matter of economy. It would be nice to make some atmosphere thingies on the stage, but it would just be impossible for my sister and I to make it and bring it to Japan. I go to school that takes 85% of my day, I don't have time for a job = I honestly have no money, other that the money my mom can help me with, until I get the SU which is a help for people who study in Denmark. Where the heck would we get money to the costumes and super awesome big props? O.O

- To have the WCS in mind, was an extremely stressing thing to have for almost half a year. I had started a new school, I had started a musical, and lots of new things just happened. But I couldn't/wasn't aloud to go really into anything of it. And then suddenly some people felt like I let them down, or that I was just a stressing bitch that forgot everything and just fooled around.
It was an amazing experience, but when the Championship was over, my mind and body released all the stress, that had made me sleep bad at nights, make my body shake, and heart pounding for half a year - gone. It made me cry in Japan on the same evening, it was so many feelings and releasing of them that just fell down.

One of our judges at J-popcon 2009, named Skye, asked my sister and I, that if we won, would we be prepared? It was a hard question, but god I have no idea if it haven't been there.. Now even when it's over, I'm still not sure if I was prepared..?  When there's spoken of talent in cosplaying, and personal mental development, I would probably say no, not at all. But it was so tempting, and so excitement. I felt it as a challenge, that I had to get through, whatever it would cost. And I'm glad that we got the opportunity to participate...

No way to end this post..

World Cosplay Summit 2010

WORLD COSPLAY SUMMIT 2010
Report

Arrived in Japan!

 JAPAN

TOMORROW DESTINATION WILL BE JAPAN

TOMORROW DESTINATION WILL BE JAPAN

1 day & 16 hours left

 1 DAY UNTIL JAPAN 

4 days left

4 DAYS UNTIL JAPAN 

7 days left

7 DAYS UNTIL JAPAN

8 days left - Shopping & Visitcards

8 DAYS UNTIL JAPAN

Okay. I'll see if I can manage (uhh) to make an update everyday until I leave for Japan..

A huge step in the name of the cosplay!

Okay! Sorry I have no pictures..
But today I made a finished touch on my Tales of the Abyss costume!
AND NOW IT LOOK LIKE TEAR! WOOP!

That's a lovely relief. :) I'm gonna complete it tomorrow, and begin the preparations for the Will of the Abyss (correct the mistakes) and practice act! Woop.. :D

♬ Royal Revenge

♬ Royal Revenge ♬

Lilly Kitsune

An old piece, finally uploaded..

Instrumentalbackground music, nothing more.. Enjoy if you like. :)

Nearly an update.

Okay... I haven't been good updating my blog lately.
Reason: The World Cosplay Summit...

I really can't wait to go to Japan and experience this fantastic event, but I can't deny that I'm not exhausted and extremely stressed either... :/

I still need to sew a lot, and our act is beginning to be a pain, since some of our moves can't seem to work.. And with all other stuff in my head, I'm extremely empty for constantly finding new methods and ways to do it... Many says: "Relax, and enjoy the event.." But I really can't. I can't do something, without truly trying doing my best... Also when some people are depending on you, I'm using every fiber in my brain to get this to work out the best...

Sometimes I get the feeling when I'm going to bed, that I don't have time for sleeping... But sleeping is underestimated, and I truly worship it.. XP But tomorrow there'll be 11 days before leaving to Japan, and that is not a pleasant thought - yet... I WANNA GO! But not yet. Please stress, be kind to me and make it possible for my sister and I to work this out, and have a nice time in Japan with the other participants from the other countries.. :/

WCS

..:WORLD COSPLAY SUMMIT:..

Below is links to different posts I have made about the WCS 2010
When I get time, I will make a specific page with photos, video etc. :)

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• What is World Cosplay Summit? 

• World Cosplay Summit Report
  

• Feelings under and afterwards
  
  
• Arrival in Japan

• PICTURES
  
  
• Countdown - TOMORROW
  
  
• Countdown - 1 day
   
• Countdown - 4 days
  
  
• Countdown - 7 days
  
  
• Countdown - 8 days 
  
  
  
  If you have any questions concerning the WCS 2010, or anything feel free to send me an email on lillykitsune@gmail.com! :)